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WHEW.

Looks like it got called while we were brushing the baby's teeth and putting him to bed. Well, you know how it is. Before election: feed baby, do laundry. After election: feed baby, do laundry.

And it looks like all the pro-rape guys lost, which makes me very happy.

It did start me wondering, though. That fact that you can't say the pro-rape Republican candidate lost, you have to specify which one. Now, as you know, the GOP ran a female candidate in the last presidential election, and they got their asses handed to them. I wonder if the party made a policy decision that trying to attract the female vote, or claim to be aligned with women's interests, or whatever the fuck they were trying to do with Sarah Palin, was a fool's game, and that this year, they were going to deliberately say the hell with women's concerns, we are going to demonize women and court only the male vote.

We'll know soon if anything like that happened, because if so, there's probably a lot of frustrated Republican strategists vowing tonight to never let any candidate mention another "women's issue" again. "Fuck it! You can't be for them! You can't be against them! From now on we're just going to pretend women don't even goddamn exist!"
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Free to Be You and Me was released 40 years ago this year. Slate has a fascinating article on it.

The Junebug and I have been listening to the copy we got for him. (Of course we did.) It's not perfect. I particularly note how there are two songs criticizing kids for performing femininity. They're different, though. In "William's Doll", William is mocked by his peers for wanting a doll; the nyah-nyah "William wants a do-oll! William wants a do-oll!" is by far the catchiest part of the song, unfortunately, but the authorial viewpoint validates and supports his behavior. Whereas in "Ladies First", the little femme girl is hatefully annoying and gets eaten up by tigers and the authorial point of view is definitely that this is a good thing, too. (Per the Slate article, it was written by Shel Silverstein, and suddenly I am much less surprised. Not particularly feminist, that guy.)

Apparently the nobody-actually-likes-doing-housework-so-everyone-better-pitch-in "Housework" poem turned out to be problematic, to the point that they wished they hadn't put it on the album. I have to say that we were hoping to Tom Sawyer the Junebug into wanting to help with chores, so it won't be particularly helpful to have this album telling him that everyone hates housework and he will to. However, to me, it is completely worth it for its introduction to the concept that TV lies to you and marketing is manipulation. Never too young to start.
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Things the baby has ostensibly done recently to cause people to say "Wow, you've really got a boy there, haven't you?"

1) Opened kitchen drawer, flung out piece of tupperware
2) Climbed up slide at playground

Things I believe the baby has ACTUALLY done recently to cause people to say "Wow, you've really got a boy there, haven't you?"

Received a short haircut.

Reason for hypothesis

Previous to the haircut, the most common question upon meeting him was "Boy or girl?"

Alternate hypothesis

Perhaps the haircut has caused him to behave in a more masculine fashion?

Evidence supporting alternate hypothesis

None. Baby behavior has not noticeably changed.

Evidence supporting initial hypothesis

People are extremely good at finding patterns and then noticing evidence to support those patterns and discarding evidence that does not.

Conclusion

GRRARGH PEOPLE WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THAT.
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Interneeeeeets! I missed you! My computer DIED finally. I mean, slow death over the past 3 months, but it finally joined the Choir Invisible. So I type to you on my brand new Retina display! OHMYGODIT'SSHINY. So shiny.

(Oh, Mac. What's a week of migration troubles and bullshit between friends, bullshit which is not yet over but I just can't deal with it anymore tonight, I ask you? Or at least between company that beat me up and took all my cash, and sucker.)

I just saw Seanan McGuire's post about how she will Not Be Writing Any Of The Rape, Thank You, Horrible Entitled Fan. Which reminded me of the Diana Gabaldon book I read over my trip. 1940s woman goes accidentally time traveling back to Olden Times, and if there's one thing we know about Olden Times, it's that it was always rape o'clock back then! However, and I did not quite get how funny this was until the end, our protagonist Claire gets a rape threat here and a rape threat there and here a grope, there a beating, everywhere a rape threat, but in the end, spoiler )

Which totally works for me! I mean, if rape is necessary for gritty realism, let us have realistic gritty backstory for everybody! Let's have Batman dedicated to fighting crime because his parents were killed and then he got buggered in an alley! Let's have Captain America overcome his trauma from being gang banged by Nazis! I mean, those male superheroes - going around by themselves all the time, wearing all that skintight spandex. What did they expect?

u mad sis?

Aug. 27th, 2012 09:28 pm
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I remember one time when I was a teenager I destroyed everything in my room. I had a shitload of posters on my walls when I was a teenager, art prints I loved and heavy metal bands, which I had collected over years, and in many cases cut up and reshaped into collages, and one day I ripped them all physically down and destroyed them and tore up a bunch of my drawings and broke a bunch of shit because I was beyond furious and there was nothing else I could do about it. I remember thinking at the time, even as I did it, that I was doing it because I had finally learned that whenever I got angry and I tried to do something about my anger to the source of my anger, everything just got worse for me. And if I could not keep my anger unexpressed, finally it was best to just turn it at myself and destroy my own things. It was all I could do.

Cat Marnell is the acceptable face of female anger. She's cute and skinny and white, but most of all she's self-destructive. She's very open about hating herself. We're comfortable with that. Requires Hate is extremely not comfortable. She does not let us know whether or not she's cute, whether or not she's skinny, she's definitely not white, and she very definitely hates you, not herself. Very much not the acceptable kind of female anger. I don't like Ms. Hate, and I do like Ms. Marnell* - hey, I'm as much a part of this culture as anyone. But if I had a daughter, I'd rather she grow up to be like Ms. Hate than Ms. Marnell. Keep those crotch kicks aimed outwards, love. There will be plenty of people to beat you down without you joining them.


*In talking about these women I'm talking about their public personas as inferred from their writing. I don't know anything about what either of them are actually like as people.
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I've never read 50 Shades of Grey, but while I was lying around sick last weekend I enjoyed Jennifer Armintrout's sporking of same. It's funny! But man, are there a lot of people out there moaning that the writing is terrible, and no wonder they can't get published if this is what people want, and - more seriously - that isn't it terrible that women apparently find this sexy and want to fantasize about a creeper like Chedward Grullen. I do find it kind of funny that when Twilight came out it was all "what about the children" fretting about what kind of example Bella was for teenage girls and now that 50 Shades is apparently "mommy porn" the zeitgeist effortlessly shifted to fretting about, apparently, what kind of example Ana is for middle-aged moms.

About the bad writing: as @PennyRed says: "Um, hello? It's PORN." Porn doesn't have to be lapidary or groundbreakingly original. It gets popular on different terms. Bitterly announcing that 50 Shades's overwhelming popularity is a sign of the end of literacy and shows why your carefully crafted novel can't sell - i.e., it's wasted on the inferior readers of today - is pathetic. You don't see moviemakers do this. Kathryn Bigelow doesn't go around blaming The Hurt Locker's depressingly small box office on the popularity of Big Wet Asses #14. Or at least not in public.

Not, to be clear, that Ms. Armintrout does that either. She's got a sense of humor about the writing ("Chapter 8: This One Time I Fucked A Girl So Hard She Turned Into a Pirate"). But she goes on and on and ON - and she's hardly the only one - about how she cannot believe that there are women out there who talking about wanting their own Christian Grey. Because the dude's an abusive creep.

But I kind of think she's missing the active ingredient of the fantasy. 50 Shades didn't introduce the concept of abusive creeps to women at large. Twilight didn't. How many of the girls whom everyone is all worried about their reading material, have already encountered the abusive creep up close and personal in real life? The appealing aspect of 50 Shades/Twilight isn't that the hero is an abusive creep. The appeal is that in this fantasy-fulfillment fiction, the abusive creep is just misunderstood, and really means well, and only wanted the best for you all along.

Does that sound familiar? Because it's what people have been saying about Rene Welling at Readercon. Hell, it's what people always say first thing at cons and in high schools when some asshole harasses a woman. He didn't mean anything by it. Man, don't you think women want that to be true? I'm reminded of one time at Wiscon when people were making fun of the healing cock trope and [personal profile] commodorified stood up and said, gosh, you know, why would a community overwhelmingly made up of women be attracted to a fantasy where one bout of good sex would cause you to just magically get over your trauma from being raped? It's a mystery! We all shut the hell up. Why would women resonate with a fantasy where the scary dude who won't leave you alone turns out to be only scary in a thrilling way, turns out to be sexy, turns out to be rich and secretly kind and fixable under his rough exterior and perfect once he's been tamed by the power of your love and understanding?

Cause we get told and told that these creepy dudes should be forgiven, understood, worked around, given the benefit of the doubt. And yet, of course, when you were the one in the situation, you know what happened. And it's fucked up and disorienting to have the world at large telling you what you know isn't so. You end up all, am I crazy? Am I the one that's crazy? Do I really have to break my community now to deal with this? And, y'know, sometimes you do. I'm so grateful to [livejournal.com profile] glvalentine for doing that. But I tell you what that is not: it's not a relaxing wank fantasy. And there's a place in life for fantasy. Sometimes you don't want to read only manifestos. And if you'd like to take a break from cognitive dissonance, and you don't fantasize about fighting; maybe sometimes you fantasize that maybe the world works the way people tell you it should, and you're neither crazy nor being lied to and manipulated ALL THE FUCKING TIME, and that if you follow the rules you'll be rewarded and safe and get love and good sex and fun. It's a lie, you know it's a lie, but it's not hurting anyone for a woman to enjoy a fiction for a while. All porn should be so harmless.

brave

Jul. 15th, 2012 11:42 am
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I know I tweeted this already, but these are the best thoughts yet on Brave.

On another note, though, spoilers )

Also, that was totally Ancient Scottish Burning Man she fucked off to, right? I wonder if all the [spoilers] in Ancient Scotland who didn't go celebrated the annual Festival of Parking And Being Able To Get Into Restaurants like we do around here.
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The time I went scuba diving, one of the most fun things about it for me was the ongoing feeling that I was getting away with something. Look, world! I'm underwater and I'm breathing! I'm not supposed to be able to do this! Reality, I thumb my nose at you!

Probably it was fun because I understood how and why I was breathing underwater. If you suddenly discovered you could breathe underwater, but you didn't know how, or why, or whether the ability might go away at any point? You might not do it even if you could. You probably wouldn't go very deep.

As I've talked about a bit, post-baby I've had a surprisingly deep pink shift in my gender identity. And what has been shocking to me is what a weight off it is now that I am no longer walking that fine line between heterosexually partnered and butch. How easy it is to buy shoes. How easy it is to decide what to wear to parties. My god - I wasn't even that butch, and I had no idea how much of my energy was bound up in simply not being as femme as women are "supposed" to be. I am not saying that I should have been dressing femme before. I shouldn't have been, because I hated it. But there's two ways of looking at it.

One of them is this: earlier in my life, wearing makeup and dresses made me feel trapped and miserable, and now it makes me feel daring and fun. Therefore I should not have done it then, and I should do it now.

But there is another, insidious, pervasive, subterranean way of looking at it, which is this: look, if the only reason not to do something is because it makes you miserable, if it's all in your head, why not do what you're supposed to do? Why not do what's easy?

I just got home from a rather large party in a nice suburban home where I was the only woman there with a job. It's been a year since I had the Junebug. We still live in the city. I still work nearly full-time. Around these parts, it feels like breathing underwater. Nearly half the people I know are living like I used to and they have no kids. Nearly half the people I know are parents and the moms have quit their jobs and mostly they live in the suburbs. I know a couple of working moms but their kids are older. We could survive without my salary. Sometimes it feels like the fact that I'm pretty sure I'd be sullenly unhappy as a stay-at-home mom in the suburbs is not a good enough reason not to do it. After all, it must be better for the baaaaaaby, right? That's why everyone does it, right? What problem am I missing about our current lives that we're going to pay for later? If everyone is running for the exit, do they know something I don't? When is this air tank going to run out?
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I find it fascinating how much time and energy people have put into discussing, on [livejournal.com profile] freece's blog and at f_fa and elsewhere, whether Laurent is the one who takes it up the butt or not. (Question answered now, obviously.) I think there's a reason for it.

It starts with Laurent's literary pedigree: his father is Lord Peter Wimsey; his brother is Vampire Hunter D; his mother is Francis Crawford of Lymond. You see the issue, here: he had to be an assbaby. Female characters get beat with the Mary Sue stick but there ain't no Sue like a boy named Sue. The only female character I can think of in English literature who shares the family traits of infuriating rightness and superhuman versatility and so on to the same over-the-top degree is Mary Poppins. And she had no children. Bert is a nearly offstage character; the central characters who stand in the same inferior yet fascinated relationship to her as their various lovers and admirers do to Wimsey and Lymond and so on are the Banks children. Which says something about that type of relationship.

So Laurent as a character has no female parent, nor is he himself female, but I put it to you that in Captive Prince he is doing the closest thing possible to playing a female version of that type of character. It isn't quite a female role. If Laurent were a girl the story would be quite different, and I'd love to read that goddamn story. I'm waiting to read that story. I'd love to know what it would be like, because I can't imagine it. Well, I've been trained not to since birth, obviously. Every part of my culture down to the most casual teaches me that a strong and romantically successful woman is not the one who beats everybody - that paper bag princess goes alone into the sunset - she's the one who achieves her natural place two paces to to the rear of her just slightly more awesome man.

(And this takes me back to [personal profile] hradzka and others complaining that women are using gay men to tell their stories, and how that makes me want to laugh until I fall off the sofa. Why yes, we've been trained since birth that all the stories worth telling are about men, and now we tell our stories using men, and you complain? Give it up. Like this commenter complaining to [livejournal.com profile] yuki_onna that people are appropriating! British-Celtic! culture! As if it somehow just happened that in America I grew up never hearing any Olmec or Aztec myths but I sure did learn Scottish and Welsh and Irish and English fairy tales and fantasy stories? As if it were accidental that all the fantasy I grew up reading was set in Vaguely Europe, that I was taught to dream of dragons? Ha! No. Europe imposed its culture on everybody: now it's ours too. If you shove something down people's throats, it's too late to demand it back when they chew and swallow.)

In the meantime, Laurent sounds like a transitional object (another thing I learned about from Are You My Mother?:) it's not you, but it's not not-you, either. Like Toni Morrison's famous characterization of Bill Clinton as the first black president. Clinton wasn't black. But, in retrospect, he was a step on the way to Obama.

So the question of whether Laurent tops or bottoms is at least a little bit the question of to what degree he is a female character, and furthermore, the question of how female a female version of his role gets to be. Because Laurent is definitely cool. He's a badass; he's openly the most capable person in four countries. And the question is: to be a cool, capable badass, do you have to top? Do you have to take the male role in bed? Does it lessen the character if he likes to get fucked? Bitchy Jones addressed this in her complaint about how het female doms, if they are ever even acknowledged, are always supposed to be all about pegging their male subs. That's an activity in which the woman's pleasure is mostly symbolic. There's nothing wrong with it; but why is it the sine qua non of female sexual dominance? It would be as if male doms were overwhelmingly known to most favor keeping their pants on and going down on their female subs, eschewing any activity that actually involved their penis. To understate the obvious: that's not the way male sexuality is constructed. So it was a very interesting question whether Laurent in his hermaphroditic role would perpetuate his dominance by being the fucker rather than the fuckee, or whether he would somehow try to reconcile a very male type of dominance with a female type of sexuality.
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Faith Erin Hicks had some pithy commentary on this week's Newsweek cover article.

(Original photo is from weloveguys.net. Do you know how many photos I was able to find of a dude sexily modeling canonical masculine insecurity on the net? Zero, that's how many. Sexy dudes, yes. Dick measuring, the entirety of Reddit. (Rimshot.) No, seriously, dudes measuring their dicks on camera, just turn off Safe Search, or for that matter check your spam filter. Sexy, worksafe dick measuring, big fat ZERO.)
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It occurs to me that one of the annoying things about the GOP's war on women is that I miss feeling like Sheri Tepper was over the top.

makeup

Feb. 1st, 2012 09:50 pm
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So to follow up from our earlier conversation, one afternoon I did take myself to Sephora and get a willowy person to put makeup on me and show me how it was done. First she told me that I had great skin and barely need foundation at all. Then she put this liquid foundation from Make Up For Ever on me, to take out a bit of redness in my cheeks. Then she put blush on me, presumably to put the redness back in my cheeks. I decided that this seemed unnecessary. I also worked out why people are always telling me they thought I was younger. It's because when you put makeup on your skin you instantly add five to ten years to your age. Seriously: I went around the store trying different kinds of concealer and foundation and such. Do the same thing if you don't believe me! Put a bit on the back of your hand and blend it in. Marvel at all the tiny wrinkles and lines in the skin there that you never, ever could have noticed before. So when this person was finished making me up I definitely looked fancier and maybe even prettier but also ten years older. So I decided that foundation is not for me. The promise of concealer sounds really nice (as if I could erase all the night wakings!) but again, suddenly it gives me all these wrinkles under my eyes so it's no go.

I did buy some mascara, and I think it looks nice on me. I also bought some eyeliner but the truth is that my life is not currently really fancy enough for eyeliner, so I haven't worn it yet. Someday Mr. E and I will go out on a date again and I will try it out. Maybe I will buy some eyeshadow before then, too! There will probably be time. Though I have no immediate plans to go makeup shopping again.

I did find this fantastic makeup primer online. Finally I understand why I used to pick lip glosses in colors that appealed to me and some of them worked and some of them didn't and I never knew why! Now I know that it's orange undertones that look like clown makeup on my olive skin. I used to think that purple was exaggerated and clownish and now I come to discover that purple undertones just look neutral and natural on me. And Clinique divides up their lipcolors into reds, pinks, nudes, and violets, so that was extremely helpful.

Going around with lipstick and a skirt on, I have gotten a bit of a "your hair don't stick up no more!" vibe from a couple of old friends. Maybe butch is cooler because you have to be a little brave to be a butch woman? Maybe butch is cooler because it rejects girl stuff and is more like being a guy? Maybe because I used to look more gay? Eh, I'm still just as gay as I've ever been, which is obviously only sort of. Though it's funny, now that I think of it: the first girl I ever kissed, really properly kissed, it was at a goth club, after she had spent the earlier part of the evening doing my makeup, and I had spent it silently vibrating out of my skin. Having a gorgeous femme do your makeup is piercingly erotic. Competence, steady hands, her attention on you, her face three inches from yours, her breath brushing your cheek, as she tells you, "Look up. Perfect. Beautiful. Now open your mouth."
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Peanut butter chicken: the period after you have bought the all-natural peanut butter, but before you can actually eat the all-natural peanut butter, because the all-natural peanut butter is sitting in the kitchen waiting to see who is going to give in and stir it.

I feel for you guys who live alone, I surely do. Life must be so empty without this kind of gamesmanship lending it quotidian color and interest.

Actually it occurs to me that this is a pretty good example of the appeal of traditional gender roles. If it were my job to stir the peanut butter, on account of how I am a woman and it is a kitchen thing, well I would be annoyed at always having to be the one to get peanut butter all over myself and everything and clean it up. BUT it would mean that I could eat the peanut butter right away. Plus I would not have to devote any mental cycles to deciding whether I wanted to be the one to give in and stir the peanut butter. It would just be an automatic thing. So there would be something in it for me. And of course it would be great for Mr. E, automatic pre-stirred peanut butter. >XP

And then of course the mindful alternative would be that we sit down and discuss our peanut butter roles, should we take turns, how would we keep track, should it be the person who bought it, would that just encourage us to never buy any peanut butter, who eats more peanut butter, maybe we should trade it off with another chore so that one person would be the peanut butter stirrer and that person would never have to return the deposit bottles, honestly even thinking about this level of negotiation makes me want to eat my own head.

So peanut butter chicken it is. Maybe I should call it satay.
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This was a reply to [personal profile] hradzka and then I thought I would just put it here as well.
Still, fandom is currently in a bit of a self-questioning state that it doesn't seem too eager to resolve. From my perspective as a non-feminist, this is at least partially because the answers presented by much of current feminist and leftist ideology would seem to me to be *answers that fandom does not want to hear.*

Yeah, you think that, because you think that there's 1) something wrong with feminism and 2) something wrong with our (where by "our" I mean female fandom, and therefore pretty obviously elide a huge number of differences) desires. God knows there's things wrong with feminism but it's not what you're thinking here. And what's wrong with our desires is only the inevitable outcome of what's wrong with the world. Read what Sugar wrote here about her teenage fantasies and their roots. Nobody's sexual development happened in a vacuum. Every woman in this world grew up in a world where men were presented every single damn day from a variety of sources as more intelligent valuable interesting strong capable central active resourceful blah blah blah, and incidentally, in a world where white men were presented as sexier smarter faster more valuable more cultured more interesting blah blah blah than non-white men, and do people really then wonder, somehow, when writing stories about canon that are 90% about white men, that our hindbrains come up with stories and desires for stories about white men? That the bits of our brains that are looking for fun and not hard work frequently consider their comfort zone to be white men? Surprise. And does that mean that those desires are wrong?

NO. Everybody makes their own erotic compromises with the patriarchy. We're going to die while the world is still fucked. We can't put our libidos on hold until everything is sorted out. And to sort out our libidos we'd not only have to sort out the world but we'd also have to hop in our imaginary time machine and go back and fix it so that we grew up in a fair world where people cared about what happened to people who weren't rich white men and that is also going to happen on the twelfth of never so you will forgive me if I say that there is nothing wrong with the way we live with our oppression by eroticizing it. I mean that. It's a survival trait that the brain eroticizes things it's afraid of or angry about, that is one of the ways we cope. And I love our survival. I will be cheerleading it forever. And when we find ways to not only survive but have fun with the place we are condemned to take, when we turn it into art and community and squee, I want to throw a fucking party. We win.

And questioning it is not wrong either. Feminism is not wrong about interrogating the whitecockers. Because that's how things get better. That's how we work on decolonizing our brains while living in our colonized brains. You say that this fic doesn't resolve or offer to resolve feminist fandom's ongoing internal conflict, but dude, to fix feminist fandom, you would have to fix the whole world. Are you seriously complaining that a 4000 word fanfic about a tumblr doesn't finish the job? It does its job, okay? It does its little part. It's one small step for fandom. I think it's a great story.
The story in question is When Fics Take on a Life of Their Own. Fandom: RPF/Feminist Ryan Gosling.

(Though to be honest I prefer Hey Girl, It's Kstew.)
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I own a purse, two skirts, and a dress! And I have been wearing them! I have leveled up in Girl.

I got my skirts from Effie's Heart. They only go up to size XL (about a 14-16?) but if you can fit into that, they have some nice stuff. And sales. I got this skirt for a total of $18 with discount!

A-line skirts are nice because if they're at least knee-length then no one is seeing your underwear no matter how you sit. Unfortunately they are just not as warm as pants. On the other hand, if you have tights that fit, then my GOD they are comfy.

When I decided to get a purse I started looking around at people's bags and it's one of those things that I never noticed before but when I started thinking about it, wow, people carry a lot of bags. Well, probably a lot of it is also that I walk around and use public transport. Drivers probably just haul shit around in their cars. But people walking around need all kinds of bags. You know what's amazing to me? Women who carry around purses so big that they could have a purse dog in there and no one would ever know except that their purse dog could be a German Shepherd. If I were carrying around one of those purses I would be all leaning to the side and huffing and puffing. But they're just casually swinging it along with the other bag they're probably carrying. They clearly carry that purse every single day, they're so used to it. What do they have in there? What 3 cubic meters of stuff do you need with you every single day?

So I've been thinking more about makeup, on account of stuff like this. And I go back to, if you dress butch then not wearing makeup is a no-brainer; makeup isn't very butch. But if you dress femme and don't wear makeup, then do you look like you're too hippie to or not organized enough to? Of course, Corporette is a blog for lawyers; my workplace is much more casual. But on the third hand, I got called "young lady" the other day. In a joking manner, but still - I'm about to be 37. That ain't right. Anyway, I haven't started wearing makeup, but I thought I'd do some research in case I decided I wanted to. So I googled "minimal makeup". What I found was articles on how the no makeup look is the hot look right now and how to achieve it for which you will apparently need three separate types of concealer. THE POINT, YOU HAVE MISSED IT.

Good things about wearing a purse: you don't have to keep transferring shit between your pockets; much less chance of accidentally running chapstick through the wash with your clothes; when going through security such as at the airport or, just to pick a random example, when spending the day with your tiny son at the emergency passport center (long story), it is much easier to just throw a purse on the conveyor belt than it is to dig every last random penny and scrap of lint out of your various pockets.

Bad things about wearing a purse: you don't. That is, you wear it when you're out, but you don't wear it around the house or the office. This is really awkward! I keep my lip gloss in my purse now, but now that means I don't have it with me every time I go to the bathroom, which means my lips are all chapped because I don't have the opportunity to reapply it when I go to the bathroom! And what about having your phone around? Do you just not answer your cell phone when you're at home cause you can't hear it cause it's in the other room in your purse? When you're stuck in the bathroom, do you just read shampoo bottles like it's 1998? Skirt-wearing people who are used to not having pockets: how do you deal with this? You have to wear a watch still, right?
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I just read The Unknown Ajax by Georgette Heyer. It's extremely funny, and the interesting thing is, the pseudoeponymous Ajax himself is an extremely funny man. Which got me thinking. There are not so many people out there writing characters who are very funny people, and I wonder why? My first thought was that it might be like the well-known problem of writing a character who is smarter than you are; but no, even very funny writers don't write very funny characters. I mean, they write characters who make you laugh; but much more rarely characters whom you would think were funny people if you met them, who do it on purpose. You laugh your ass off at Bertie Wooster's hapless drollery, but he's not doing it to get a laugh out of others. Ned's internal monologue in Connie Willis's To Say Nothing of the Dog is witty and sharp and makes the book itself funny, but there's no indication that he's ever particularly funny out loud. Nick in Sarah Rees Brennan's Demon's Covenant trilogy is a whiz with the one-liners - actually, so is everyone else in the first book, in very similar voices, which is a flaw in that book that basically disappeared over the rest of the series and it's so nice to see a writer do a thing like that - but you couldn't exactly call him humorous. Jamie, maybe. Jane Austen clearly could make her characters funny but she only gives the anal sex jokes to Mansfield Park's Mary so that she can later moralize about how terrible she is with the levity and all. (I'm not joking, Austen n00bs. There's a buttsex joke in Mansfield Park. Austen could work blue, she just didn't want to.) Lord Peter Wimsey, of course, is funny as hell, but Sayers cheats: more than half his jokes are quotes, as though she didn't trust herself to write them, which is ridiculous.

Of course Ajax, like a lot of Heyer's other funny heroes, has it easy, in that he has the heroine to laugh at his jokes - and be the butt of them. As always, it reminds me of that Woolf quote:
Women have served all these centuries as looking-glasses possessing the magic and delicious power of reflecting the figure of man at twice its natural size...That serves to explain in part the necessity that women so often are to men... Under the spell of that illusion, I thought, looking out of the window, half the people on the pavement are striding to work. They put on their hats and coats in the morning under its agreeable rays. They start the day confident, braced, believing themselves desired at Miss Smith’s tea party; they say to themselves as they go into the room, I am the superior of half the people here, and it is thus that they speak with that self-confidence, that selfassurance, which have had such profound consequences in public life and lead to such curious notes in the margin of the private mind.
Sure it's easier to be funny when being funny is sexy, when coming off the better in the battle of wits gets you what you want. Hugo wants Anthea and Anthea wants Hugo, that is a fact. But in the way their conflict is set up - the classic way that courtship is set up - if Hugo is cleverer than Anthea, Hugo and Anthea get each other, and if Anthea is cleverer than Hugo, neither of them gets to be happy. What's Anthea's motivation to be clever, or funny, or effective, or wise, when doing it gets her punished instead of rewarded? Of course she plays to lose. Millions of years of training women to let men win; and then claim that women are bad at negotiation.

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Nov. 3rd, 2011 09:23 pm
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I've been feeling surprisingly interested in being more femme lately!

I mean, I guess in a way it's not surprising, and that way is that I get bored very easily. My hairdresser mentioned last time I saw him that I've probably had eight different hairstyles in the time he's been cutting my hair where most of his other clients have had one or two. Other stuff that might be going on:

1) I pooped out a baby! And now I am feeding him from my boobs! I am pretty sure that somewhere in my brain biological determinism is going "huh, now we are a mama...I guess we should step up our female game?"

2) I have been reading [personal profile] sparkymonster and her cronies geek out about fabulous eyeshadow and such over Twitter and, you know, it sounds like fun! I mean, I have always liked costume and elaborate clothes. I wear a lot of hats!. See above re: inconstancy, I have had more butch periods and more femme periods in my life, but if I had to pick my favorite overall gender presentation or the one that has appealed to me most throughout my life, I would have to say: foppish. If I could choose what I would look like it would probably be Adam Ant. Oh, sorry, under-35s: like Captain Jack Sparrow, but with fewer bodily parasites.

3) I've been feeling ugly, and lord knows that the fastest way for me to get some strokes for my appearance is to conform more to gender rules. And it would be so much easier to be more femmey. (In some ways. In other ways, it's so nice to have stuff that I just handwave and say "that does not apply to me because of my gender presentation, thank you." Things like leg depilation. I would have to deal with that again, and damn is that not appealing.)

4) It might be as simple as the fact that I am growing out my hair, actually.

But see, there's just one of the many problems with this idea: the whole reason I am growing out my hair is that short hair only looks good if you get it cut regularly, and it's much harder to get the time to do that right now, so I thought I'd try to get a haircut that would be more forgiving! I have no time! It's not a good point in my life to get curious about makeup! If I have ten minutes that I could spend zerberting the baby, or sleeping, or fucking around on the internet, or reading, or drawing on my eyelids: YOU LOSE, EYELIDS.

I don't know. I have a wedding to go to this month, and then there are holiday parties, and I need something to wear, because none of my pre-pregnancy tops fit right anymore...maybe I will buy a dress and see how it goes? Igigi is a good place to buy dresses, right? Fatshionistas, help me out - where should I be looking? Also, shit, if I wear a dress, I'll need a purse, right? They don't have pockets? Where's a good place to get a purse from?
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This weekend I had a lovely and enjoyable brunch with [livejournal.com profile] laurenhat. We talked about the books we were reading: me, Necessary Dreams: Ambition in Women's Changing Lives (recommended to me years ago by Sumana Harihareswara); her, Ask For It: How Women Can Use the Power of Negotiation to Get What They Really Want.

It turned out to be an extremely well-timed conversation as I had been meaning to have a talk with my boss about various things and had really been not looking forward to it. I immediately bought Ask For It on the Kindle app, read it, and now feel as though I have strategies with which to approach the situation. In fact, the reason I am still awake is because I am, as the book discusses, doing my homework in preparation for my negotiation. While I must beware of procrastinating - it is a terrible weakness of mine - procrastination is different from taking the time to marshal my facts and think through options and decide what I want and what I am willing to accept and what I have to bargain with and so on. And it feels good to take my time and not feel rushed into trying to have conversations before I know what I want to say.

It is also good to remember that, negotiating from the wrong end of a power imbalance is never fun, but negotiating in itself is not evil. There are plenty of times in my relationship when We Have To Talk, not because things are awful, but because from time to time you have to check in and make course corrections to prevent things from becoming Awful. Ideally way before they are anywhere near Awful. It seems reasonable that this sort of thing might be necessary at work, too!

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