even less fun

[metaphortunate]

Also, I motherfucking hate Mother's Day now. It means for a week the entire newsocommentarianet has been full of pieces and comments and forwards and bullshit based on the respected peer-reviewed journal of Pulling Opinions Out of My Ass about motherhood, and how awful it is, and how we are screwing up our children's lives, and our own lives, and the world, and blah blah blah, and while normally I just let that kind of opinion from people I don't know slide right on by, it turns out I am extremely insecure about parenting, and motherhood, and so this shit gets to me. It gets me right in the unknowable. So I've spent this week anxious and depressed. Bastards.

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[wired]

Argh, motherhood, that sacred institution that everyone should feel like they're doing wrong.

I bring possibly-hopeful news from the future. I now own a mug with My Little Pony/Skyrim mashup art on it, and bedraggled geraniums in it. Also, Twilight Sparkle is levitating an anvil to drop on someone's head, because Looney Toons.

Who knows what the girl-child will give me.

No one I love has suggested that I need diamonds, perfume, or a vacuum to feel like a better mother. Instead I think I get breakfast in bed (last year it was cold cereal and pudding) and three blessed hours alone.

And I just finished my gift to my mom: a letter detailing what's happening to us this year, ala the Christmas update letters I have never once in my adult life managed to write. That's all she wants.

So, um, I also found motherhood and ritualized celebrations thereof a lot more uncomfortable until the fruit of my loins grew personalities, but then it got better. For me.

[metaphortunate]

That is hopeful news! Thank you!

[snippy]

There are lots of kinds of mothers out there; not all of that stuff is aimed at me.

As for the future: helping your kids pick and work out their first costumes for a con. That's bunches in my past-I've done it for a grandchild now. And this mother's day my younger son made me dinner and gave me the soundtrack from a recent movie that I liked.