Wow, this is totally me. I am not pretty or cute, and nothing I can buy will look better on me than "well, not completely unacceptable, I guess", so I don't bother. When I get that sort of unhappy/uncomfortable, I go buy books.

I often wonder if I'd be the same sort of radical, angry feminist if I had a body that was more able to conform to femininity. If I could pass, would I be doing that? What would I think about the world if I had been a different-loooking person, one who needed less policing?